Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Adaptation

Some people are uncomfortable with changes. They will be anxious about changes in their lives and may loath at the possibility of change.

I preceive myself as a person who is very adaptable to changes around me. I see changes as something positive. Changes allow us to experience new things in our lives and we may discover something new about ourselves that we do not know before. Maybe I am just a practical person and have adopted to the ever changing nature of our world. Maybe I understand that in order to survive in this world, I will need to change and adapt.

When I was young, I was forced to adapt to a new country and a new style of living when I immigrated to Australia. I was able to adapt quickly and soon made Australia my home.

When I moved to university, my closest friends from high school all went to different universities. I was able to make friends quickly and within a few weeks, I would always have people to hang around with during breaks.

I have moved around to alot of different jobs since I graduated, and each time I have adjusted well to new environments. I remember that one of my current collegues commented that I fitted in the group very nicely after only a week in my current job and that she thought I had been with the group much longer than my actual time there.

In terms of my church life, I have changed from serving in the Chinese congregation with older people to serving in the English congregation with younger people. I feel like that I am able to get on well with different people, no matter what age or background and so I am flexible in terms of who I am serving.

Many of my good friends have deserted me in the past few years, not in the sense of termination of friendship, but in the sense of leaving for overseas or getting married, which means they have less time for me than before. But I try to make new friends with the people that are around me. It is strange that the people I used to rely on five years ago are different to the people that I rely on now.

However, a person like me who is adaptable to change faces one big challenge - IDENTITY CRISIS. Sometimes I don't feel like I belong anywhere. A life filled with changes makes a person lose his sense of identity and belonging. Am I Australian or am I Chinese? Who is my best friend? Do I really belong to the firm I am in now, or am I just staying here for a year or so before moving to greener pastures? Who are my closest friends in church - the people I have known for 10 years (but they are not able to understand some of the issues I go through in my role in the English congregation) or the younger guys in English (who may not have the life experience to understand the problems I face in my life)? Maybe that is why I like changes in life. Maybe there is a glimmer of hope that I will find my true identity through changes and that one day I truly know who I am.....

But maybe all these things do not matter, as I know I belong to GOD, and I am His son.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I concur.