Trip Diary - Emotional Bagage

Going on a trip to my initial hometown was meant to be a way for me to realise stress and emotions. But it seems like emotionally, my baggage is heavier and heavier with the people I meet.

There are certain people that I was looking forward to catching up with. I wanted to spend more time with them, as they are people whose friendship I cherish and treasure. However, they are very absorbed with their work or other commitments. I wanted to spend one on one time with them to talk about things more personal, but they do not have time for me, and the only time I would meet them would be in a group context where it would be hard for me and for them to share more personal things.

There are other people who complain that every time I am here, I do not have enough time to meet up with them. And when I try to make an appointment with them, they are not willing to confirm on a time and date, with the excuse that something else may come up. If that is the case, then why complain to me, if they are not willing to commit to a meeting time?

There are people who I normally do not contact but I will see them every time I am in my initial hometown. But some of these people I no longer have anything in common with and I would feel a sense of loss after meeting with these people, as I realise that our relationship is no longer the same. Maybe it is better for me not to contact them at all in the first place.