Confusion

Confused. Utterly incomprehensible.

Why are people so noisy? Why do people like to gossip?

Can a guy and a girl be just friends? Why do people say so much, and do so much? Why do people think we are not setting the right example? Why is it that the only thing we can do to stop stumbling other people is to distance ourselves from one another?

In any other context, this kind of friendship is common. Why are people so sensitive?

Or am I fooling myself? I know where I stand. I think I know. Does she know where she stands? Why is her response dependent on my response? Am I an obstacle in her way to happiness? Would others not approach her because of me?

I was told that she has never rejected me, unlike others, who would do so in an unfair and prejudicial manner. Am I a reject? Why would everyone else reject me? Why would only guys tell me that they would have me if they were the opposite sex? Are they only comforting me?

Am I confused? Am I hurt? Am I disillusioned?

I can choose others, and others can choose me. I can reject others, and others can reject me. Endless cycle. Maybe the people that I like would always reject me, while the people that I reject would always like me.

Reassessment? Not until I have dealt with my confusion, hurt and disillusionment. But how?