Uncertainty

My bad boss tried to introduce me to a nice Christian "girl" the other day at lunch.

I enjoyed our conversation, which was mainly focused on religious issues. She was sharing her burden for her unbelieving family, her decision to take one year out of work to do bible college and her views on various Christianity issues. But she was old, at least two or more years older than me.

Maybe my uncertainty in relationships is my desire to have in a partner the spiritual maturity of an older person without the age associated with that maturity. Maybe that is why it has been so difficult to find someone until this point in time.

The road ahead will be harder and harder if I cannot reach a compromise in relation to these features. Before long, I will be an old man, always alone, always grumbling, always by myself.