Crossroads

My boss has just resigned. She is someone that I have admired, as she has a good work ethic and has integrity. Her departure is a shock to me, although not unexpected, as I have sensed that she is very dissatisfied with management. Our firm is more and more focussed on profitability, at the expense of other important things. People's performance seems to be purely measured by how much profit you generate for the firm, and other contributions are not highly regarded. This was not the case one year ago.

What does her departure mean to me? Well, if I continue to stay on, I would be working under another boss who I do not like (see here, here and here) . Even though this boss and other bosses have been talking to me about supporting me and even hinting at the prospect of partnership in a few years time, these factors are not sufficient to lure me to stay, as I do not expect to be happy if I continue on. Furthermore, the size of our team has decreased so much in the past six months that I feel like I am in a sinking ship.

So what are my options?

1. Go to another firm. This is not one of my preferred options. I have been to a number of law firms already. I guess eventually they are all the same. If I do not have an aspiration for partnership, why should I continue to work in a law firm?

2. Go inhouse. A viable option, but there are not that many organisations I would enjoy working for, especially if the work is repetitive and boring. But I should look into this further.

3. Go overseas. I know my area of law is in great demand. But do I want to work those long hours overseas? If I am not here, there may even be a lower chance that my parents would be able to know Christ. So even if I go, it would be short term. Maybe I should do something for myself for once, and try doing something different.

4. Study. Bible college. Being a deacon at church has actually turned me off from studying at bible college. I would be unhappy if I am to be a pastor of a church (with the way most churches treat their pastors). What can I do when I come out of college? Maybe I don't have enough faith yet. Dunno.

5. Do something different. Cafe. Tutoring Centre. If there is a good business idea I may pursue it, but to date I have thought of nothing.

This is so hard. Do something that makes me happy? I don't even know what that is.

And among all this, what is the voice of God telling me to do? I need to listen.