God's providence

God has really looked after my family during the few months following the poor diagnosis of my father. A major operation was conducted on him and for the time being, my father is stable. He is going about his every day duties now, although he gets tired a bit more easily than before. God has been wonderful in caring for me and my family. The support I have received from my Christian brothers and sisters have been enormous. During the most troublesome time, I was able to take my mind off through some contract work. My parents have began attending church. I still don't know what the future holds but I will continue to trust in the Lord.

I pray to God that my parents will accept Him soon, as time is running out. My dad's heart is still have hardened, and enjoys arguing his points more than listening. May God soften his heart.

Awestruck grief

Words cannot describe the grief that I am going through now... with the knowledge of the possibility that my father's days may be numbered very soon. Further tests need to be done for confirmation, but my mind is full of anguish and sadness, as I do not know what I should be doing now. I feel so helpless. I do not want to eat, I do not want to do anything, I just do not know what I am supposed to do. I want him to know God, so maybe I should dispel all my energies onto that course, instead of worrying about what would happen in the future.