Shows

A good show engages the audience. That is why I got excited by shaking hands with Eason and Lam, and going out in the mosh pit to grab their signed tennis ball, as the atmosphere makes you want to do that. Normally I would not do that, but Eason was so good in creating a fun atmosphere.

A good show will continue no matter what happens. Eason and Lam continued their show even though they had to make small talks during the show to determine who sings first. We had to continue with our Good Friday service even though someone stumbled during the bible reading.

Audience is very important. During the Good Friday service, I was still reflecting on the sermon when sining the response hymn, and after the first line my mind went blank. Luckily, the audience was loud in their singing and that got me going again. The enthusiam of the audience in singing the songs encourages us to lead the service.

Atmosphere is also very important. During the Hillsong Easter service, the use of smokes enhanced the performance of Rebecca St James. We used candles and soft lighting to enhance the mood of our Good Friday service.

Once the show ends, there is a feeling of loss. This applies to the organiser of the show. However, even though the show has ended, its effects continue to live on in the hearts of the audience. Hopefully, the message of Easter is in the hearts of the audience attending the Good Friday service (just like Eason's songs are entrenched in my heart at the moment making me wanting to sing karaoke).

Equination part 2

The game is so frustrating!! You spend hours studying pedigrees of horses. You try to breed your mares to the perfect stallion. You look through the sales board to find cheap high quality horses that people discarded as they don't have enough patient. You build up your stable with quality lined horses, and you expect that after a few training sessions, they will do well.

But they don't. Some even went backwards. Why? They got perfect lines, and yet they suck on the track. Should I sell or keep training?

It is so ironic that the best horses in my stable at the moment are old horses aged over 10 years old. And these horses I should have retired years ago. All my new stock suck.

I need to have more patience to train them, and hopefully they can bring me back some money soon.

If you want to play, please log in through the banner below. Join up and become a basic member like me (free). I will give you a few of good lower level horses for you to begin with.

Knowing others

Just found out at drinks last night that one of our collegues is going through a really difficult time at the moment, as his sister is undergoing treatment for cancer. He did not tell anyone about it, even though he has been locked in his room looking really depressed and stressed out in the last few months. We feel bad as none of us knew what was happening, and the only reason one of us found out was that his mom rang, and he was not there to pick up his phone, and his mom left a message with one of the secretaries telling him that his sister was out of a cancer operation.

You don't expect to grow so close to people that you work with, but you do. You see them everyday, you talk to them and you work with them. You understand their strengths and weaknesses, and you form a special kind of bond with them. And when they are in trouble, you want to care for them, but maybe the work enviornment doesn't allow you to do that easily.

I feel guilty as I know he has been down, so I have been going into his room once in a while and talking to him about random stuff to take his mind off his stress, not realising that he is going through this. Maybe he just needs some time alone to think through things.

Ironically, you expect that love and care from a religious institution, not a corporate profit-driven law firm.

Helpless

We are so limited in our ability to help others. We feel their pain, we empathise with them, we show our care to them. But we are not able to relieve them from the emotional torture they are going through. Ironically, we understand what they are going through, and in some way you are able to acknowledge their situation, but its hard to find a concrete solution for them. Maybe we are all in the same situation already, and all of us are trying to find a solution. Such a solution may not come from a change in physical situation or the existence of a certain person, but may only come about as a result of our spiritual realisation.

Why?

When I first meet a person, and she is already dating, I would not even consider her as a potential partner even if we develop a close friendship, as I think that such actions are inappropriate and unethical.

Ironically, if they do ever break up, it will be hard to consider her again, since both of us see each other as friends only and it will be weird for another relationship to be developed between us.

3luv4all

Loving God, loving others and loving ourselves are not three separate kinds of love. You will need to understand and love yourself, before you are able to love others and love God. If you don't love others, you can't claim that you love God. These three loves are interconnected with one another and not indepedent.

Its easy to love people that we connect with. Its hard to love people that have a grudge against you or people that you can't stand. If we can't love them, we can't claim that we truly love God.

Office politics

Feel like being used as a pawn at the moment for office politics between the higher authorities. I should be diplomatic, but I can't since there is a strong sense of what is correct and ethical in this case. I can only try to escape by burying myself in current tasks, but I must face it eventually. The timing is all wrong as this may adversely affect my ability to be promoted.

And the irony is that the promotion only matters to me because I think I deserve it, not that I really desire it. But I still want it to happen.

Who understands the dilemma? Not even my collegue fully appreciates the situation. People outside the industry wouldn't understand either.